Week 23: TSM

How does one sleep well when you have to split the bed with someone… Maybe I’m just not comfortable with it but I’d rather sleep by myself any day. There’s freedom and lots of room to get real comfy…

Can’t wait for next week to come around so I can get the fuck out of this boring town for a weekend and party my face off in Montreal. It is nice to have things to look forward to but there is still a lot of exciting stuff waiting for me in the next few days before I leave. I feel like I am writing to convince myself of this more than anything else. Fake it till you make it!

What will I try to improve on next week?

Next week, I will focus on enjoying myself. More doing and less thinking! A mediocre plan well executed is infinitely better than a greatly plan no executed. There are so many things I want to do in my life and sure it is nice to think about all the outcomes and what ifs, but at the end of the day, it will be so much nicer to actually realize some of my day dreams. So the first one of these is learn web development! My main motivation is to be able to build and run my own functional blog! With only a few days before I leave for Montreal next week, I will focus on learning the basic of JavaScript.

What was I most proud of this week?

This week I am proud of the fact that I pushed myself in the gym. With the initial hypertrophy PPL program I am running, I really pumped up the volume this week and felt good about it. On top of this, I am happy with the progress that has come with it. I have been losing weight! A total of three pounds… Progress is progress.

What was my biggest accomplishment this week?

My biggest accomplishment this week has been the new workout plan I designed in the last few days! My goal for the summer is to reach 180lbs by August 17th. I learned this week that I shouldn’t be doing a hypertrophy phase because I would not be putting on muscle or gaining weight on a cut and thus I would just be doing way too much volume. The returns would not be worth it. Instead, I have shifted my focus to a power phase. This means lowering the reps and increasing the weight. I will be able to maintain my muscle mass, gain strength and in the end lose weight.

What have I done to get closer to my life goals this week?

This week, I have spent more time learning about programming, in its natural sense as well as in terms of fitness. I know that I am super behind compared to all my friends who already work in the software industry. Although that is not something I am aspiring to do, I feel that in today’s world, it is very important to have a foundation understanding of programming in general. We are in a huge tech bubble, and who knows, maybe start-ups are the future.

On the fitness side, I have incorporated another program in my repertoire. It is a variation of 5/3/1 and I am really excited to start it after I come back from Montreal. I believe that in order to be creative we have to develop a vast repertoire of knowledge and personal experience. Creativity is not about creating something from nothing but rather tying together that have not been done before. I don’t need to re-invent the wheel, I just need to be able to scratch my own itch because I am sure there are other people in the world who have the same problems as me.

What was hard for me this week, and why?

This week, I got really frustrated because work got derailed, again. It seems like the timelines in everyone’s mind is all jumbled, but no one seems worried except me. When I get frustrated, I start to feel anxious and overwhelmed and this week it resulted in me binge watching two hours straight of suits… Not productive. Although I am happy that the show seemed to have gotten better in the latter half of this season.

What was my biggest waste of time this week?

Hm, I played a bunch of Borderlands this week. The game is fun, it’s not super hard and it is definitely not mentally challenging. I feel like whenever I am doing something like that, it is wasting my time. I could say the same about getting high as fuck with my friends, but at least I get to interact with real people… I hate being by myself for extended periods of time. I need to work on that aspect of my life. I guess I am just not comfortable with myself still…

What did I do this week that made me ashamed?

My lack of discipline. I suck at self managing my time. I know that I shouldn’t rely on motivation to be productive but self-discipline. It’s fucking hard. I’ve always had it pretty easy in life. School has never been super hard and people generally like me. With this in mind, I never learned a good work ethic. Yea, I was pretty spoiled. It’s not a good thing in retrospect because I feel like I have so much learning and catching up to do in the real world… I need to find a concrete solution to fix my lack of self discipline because just writing about it once in a while is not going to do me any good.


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